i got this feelin?

i hate when this feeling comes and knock at my heart's door. heart has door? well, who knows and who really cares anyways. i hate it when im missing him. haih. i hate it.

cant do anything else, except, checking his FB every 5 minutes, looking at our photos together,

reminiscing every single memories dat we have. adoi. and, when im missing him, at this very moment, my heart is so vulnerable to fall in someone else's hand. how pathetic is that? but thats the truth.

i cant miss him and i dont want to miss him. because, everytime i miss him, i tend to miss some other guys too. call me a bitch. i dun care. im just being honest here. everytime i miss my fiance, i will miss and think about B. i dont know how, i dont know why, but that just me.

that is why, when i am missing him, i want him to call me, to response to my every posts and so forth. because if he didnt, i will start tooooooooooooo spread my wings, to a wrong direction. u get wat i mean rite.

haih, fiance.

dalam mase2 genting ni la u have to call me, talk to me nicely, tell me how much u miss me, tell me how badly u cant wait to see me and not doing otherwise.

but. no matter what it is, no matter how i miss A, B, C, D, or even Z, i will still love my fiance as much as i can. he will always be my sweetheart. he will always be my priority.

fiance, i miss you quite badly here. please be noted.