It’s been 17hours after he told me that he wants me no more. Ryte now, at this moment, I feel chocked, I cant breathe, I feel like im drowning in my own tears. I dun remember how it feels to be single. I don’t remember how my life was before his presence. I dun remember anything about my life, except being with him. I cant stop crying. I start to miss him the moment he said, “I want you to disappear”.
How am going to deal with this situation? Waking up tomorrow, knowing the fact that he’s no longer mine, how am I going to deal with it? 5 years, not a short period of time. It is five damn years for God sake. Why it has to be so hurt. The memories that we had keep haunting me. How we used to tickle each other, how we used to say goodbye at the end of every conversation, how we used to sing together in the car, the house dat ur planning to buy for you, me and our future children, Lord, im just so sad.
You told me, “I cant stand you anymore. There is no her. I want nobody right now. Not even you. I just want you to disappear. I want to be alone”
No matter what you said to me, no matter how harsh your words to me, you know that I still love you, and always will. Yes, I still love you and I don’t hate you. How can I hate you when you are the person that I love the most?
I know that u probably wont read this, but I just wanna tell you that I love you. And you have no idea how much I love you..
“To hate someone that we love is the hardest thing to do”
