22 years ago

22 years ago, when my mum knew that she had me in her womb, she decided to get rid of me, she decided to abort me, because she cant stand the mrning sickness and so on. but, eventually, one of my uncle told her to keep me. after my uncle convinced her, she had no other choice other than keeping me.

Now here I am. Look at me. Growing up as a mistake. Im a 22 year old mistake.

when my aunty told me about this story, i was just about 9-10 years old, i guess. mase tu aku tak rase ape2 pon. perasaan, nuetral.

tapi bila dah besar, benda ni kadang2 datang n cucuk2 hati aku. apesal? aku pon taktau. kenape? maybe sbb, makin besar, aku makin sedar yg im just a mistake. yang aku ni actually, unwanted child, versi halal.

pathetic rite?

haih.

If i can go back to 1988, i will tell my mother to abort me. dont think twice. just abort me. i wouldnt mine.

Mom, if you abort me 22years ago, I swear dat im not gonna blame you. look at me. You are making a big mistake in your life.

tears.

tears on my bfday, lame? yeah, pretty lame.
i dun what gets in to me, but Im just sad. he made me sad.
die kate, 'sorry, aye lupe arini bfday iye'
wtf man? aku baru je ingatkan kau, few hours before my day begun.
you spoiled my day. you just turn it to be the worse nightmare.
my bday, is the day where ppl making mistake. ppl referring to my parents.
they are making a mistake by having me.