miles away.

He is in Paris, and I am in Malaysia. It's thousands km away.

Im writing this blog, while looking at him sleeping, by webcam.

I dont know why, but for some reasons, i feel touched. Watching him sleeping,

touches my heart. I feel sad. I feel like there's a big damn hole in my life, in my heart.

I feel negligence. I feel wasted. I dont know. What I know is, that I miss him. I miss my fiance. And I want him to hug me, instead of hugging that pillow. fiance, i miss you. u could never imagine how much i really miss you. let me just keep it to my heart. let me just handle the burden by my own,

cause what i can be sure of, u wont understand and u will never understand how i feel. how badly i miss you, how badly i love you, and how badly i want to be around you.

Trust me syg, there's no other person in this world, i would rather be than be with you.

I know, there's no way and no chance dat u can read this stupid blog of mine. but still i just want to say sumthing to you.

take a gud care of yourself while you are in Paris. Dont have to worry about me. Because i Know who i want to grow old with. and no matter how badly my heart tempted to cheat on you, but my love for you forbid me to do such thing. because i know, it's you wanna spend my whole life with.

I DONT MIND, if u dont feel the same way as i did, because these feelings dat i have for you are real n sincere.

i have so many chances, opportunities to cheat on you, in order to make myself happy, but i chose not to.

i love you fiance..

and have faith in me when i say this,

there will never be another love, another time.