pretend

In the end
i'll always pretend
pretend I'm okay
it doesn't matter anyway

he doesnt want me
I just wanna cry
I never got to say goodbye

I was okay before
now it hurts even more
just kill me now
I dont care how

i'm fucking deppressed
angry and repressed
I want to throw things
I dont care what

I want to cry
I dont care where
I want to die
I want to get high

i'm so fucking angry
whats the point
I try so hard
i'm such a fucking retard

punch me, kick me, tear at my thoat
i'd let you drown me in a moat
I dont care anymore
I was such a whore

I fucked everything up
I made my own mess
the battlefield in my head
the cold cracked heart
barely bbeating in my chest

i'm a mess
my feelings are too hard to surpress
I want this to end
I dont want to pretend

shoot me dead
slit my wrists on the bed
overdose on pills
drown in a lake surrounded by hills

it's no use
I dont want attention
I can't deal with the abuse

what a fucked up world
what a fucked up life
I can't take it anymore
just give me the knife