engagement.

hari tu, kitorang pegi tengok cincin, dekat Diamond Platinum. saje2 jer tengok. takde agenda ape2 pon :D
bila dah tengok cincin, aku pon ape lagi, mula la berangan, nak pakai baju ape, colour ape, macam2 berlegar legar dalam otak aku ni. berbual bual pasal hantaran, dia kata, kalau ada jodoh, dia bagi 9 dulang, aku kena balas 11 dulang. kadang2 aku pikir, knape pompuan kena bagi lelaki lebih? patotnye lelaki yg kena bgi pompuan lebih, sbb pompuan lagi banyak keperluan dari lelaki. betol tak? kalau nak bagi laki 11 dulang, nak bagi ape jer? hurmmm..

1. Sirih Junjung
2. kasut
3. jam
4. Cake
5. Buah2
6. Baju
7. Seluar
8. coklat??
9. perfume
10. ..........?
11. .........????

kalau nak bagi pompuan, mcm2 bole beli. perfume, handbeg, jam, kasut, makeup 1set, lingerie, ahaks! ehhehe, cukup2la berangan tu. tak kemana semua tu angan2 tu.


korang doa2kan la jodoh aku cepat sikit sampai. sbb aku dah tak sabar nak kawen dah ni. betol! haha. tak sabar okay! :D
kalau boleh. mase engagemnt aku nanti, aku nak pakai baju yaaang sanggat simple. Simple yet sweet. I loike. aku tanak la yang kelam beria sgt. makeup pon, aku tanak la yg smokey2 eyes sume ni, wtf. aku nak tunang je kot, bukan nak gi club. :p


these are some examples of my dream engagement. i want it to be as simple as these:

i love it! :)

caci hamun, tengking maki.

aku ni, jadi tempat die caci, tengking2, maki hamun. "hey bitch, kau nak ape, babi, sial, pegi mampos, pukimak, etc." kadang2, aku call dgn niat baik, tapi aku kene tengking, kena herdik. kadang2 aku call just nak tanye die dah smpai ke, tapi tetap, aku kene tengking, kene maki. kenape aku? knape die buat aku mcm ni? ape salah aku? die tak nampak ke macam mane aku ikhlas dgn die slama ni? aku dah tak larat nak menanges. tiap kali aku kene tengking, tiap kali tu jugak la mata aku bergenang tahan nanges, tiap tu jugakla dada aku sebak tahan saket, mase tu jugakla hati aku sayu tahan sedih. beribu kali aku tanye soklan ni, kenape aku? kenape aku dia layan mcm ni? kenapa dgn prompuan lain, die bole je layan elok2, tapi kenapa tak dgn aku? ape salah aku dekat dia smpai die buat aku mcm ni skali? bertahun tahun aku syg dia, bertahun tahun aku menaruh harapan yang tinggi dekat dia, tpi tengoklah ape yg die bagi dekat aku bertahun tahun ni.

him: i dont know long u gonna treat me like im just a bit of dirt. trust me dear, i really love you. why cant appreciate me? cant you just treat me nicely? how long must i cry? how long must i try to win ur heart again.
Lord: if he is mine, then please bless our relationship. permudahkan lah jalan kami. tapi kalau dia bukan diciptakan utk aku, kau bukakkan la hati aku utk lepaskan dia.

yes, oh yes! I dont want too.

Oh yes I love you and I don’t want to break up. No, pleaseee. No!

13 may 2010

Ape ada kat 13 may? takde pape.

ape jadi kat 13 may? Macam2 jadi.

1. Kena tinggal,

2. Nanges smpai cntactlens sblah mata hilang.

3. Drive kreta tanpa contactlens sejauh 347km

4. Kene maki dgn wife orang

5. Kena maki dgn bf sendri.

what else? U name it.

Haih. aku rase aku kena mandi bunga. tak sudah2 dgn suweyy yang menimpa.

dah dah la tu Encik Suwey. Kenape kau suke sgt nak melekat kat aku?

Takde orang lain?

Bila aku cakap aku dah break, dah kena tinggal, orang akan cakap,

“ala, jangan percaya kejap je tu.” “ala. Esok2 lusa okayla tu” “elehhh, bukan kau selalu ke macam ni” “dia main-main je tu”

You guys just don’t understand, do you? Tak kire la benda ni sekejap ke, lame ke, slalu ke tak slalu ke, besok ok, ke lusa ok ke, bukan benda tu sume yang penting. Tak kire la kalau aku break 2 saat skalipon, benda tu tetap saket.

S.A.K.E.T!

So, tolong jangan pertikaikan berapa lama tempoh aku break. Sebab korang taktau ape aku rase. Bukan korang yang kene tinggal. Bukan korang yang kene halau. Bukan korang yang tunggu 5tahun. Bukan korang yang menanges smpai contactlens hilang. Bukan korang. So. Korang taktau ape yang aku rase. Aku tulis ni, idak ler nak menyalahkan mane2 pihak. Maybe salah aku gak, sbb slalu menjaja cerita ke’break-up’an aku ni. Tapi tulah hakikat. Kalo korang dgr aku breakup dah hamper masuk kali ke 89, makna nye, setiap kali tu jugaklah aku akan frust menonggeng, menanges sampai mata kabur, smpai badan dehydrated. Kadang2, rasa tak adil. Kenapa aku sorang je yang rasa semua ni. Entahla. Maybe ade hikmah yang tuhan nak tunjok. Maybe.

And kali ni, die nak break, sume mmg sbb salah aku. 100% salah aku. Haihhh. Dahlah, dah start sedih balek dah ni. Need to get out of here.

how i become a piece of meat

i mean nothing but a piece of meat

ntahlaa

Aku, saye, me, myself, I..
Bile cakap pasal ‘aku’, semua orang tau, yang aku bukan perempuan yang baik.. dan maybe sbb tu jugakla, Tuhan bagi macam2 balasan kat aku kat dunia ni.. Aku dapat saket tu. Saket ni. Kadang2, aku tanye diri sendri, kenape aku? Kenape bukan orang lain? Kenape mesti aku?. Kenape aku yg dapat benda ni? Kenape bukan dia? Sedang kan dia lagi blablablabla. Dan time ni jugaklah, aku mula menunding jari, meng compare kan kejahatan diri dgn kejahatan orang lain. Cuba utk menegakkan diri yang sememangnye dah kecundang dgn kemelut dunia. Ayat ape yg aku guna ni? Aku sendri tak sure..
When people are talking about love life, I don’t know what to say. I don’t know where to begin and I don’t know where to comment. Been in a serious relationship for almost 5years, but still I don’t how to elaborate my love life. Am I happy? I don’t know. Am I wanted to be with him for the rest of my life? Sometimes, the answer is yes, and most of the time, the answer is no. So I don’t know. And now I start to talk about my love life. Dun bother to read if u dun want too. I wont force u anyway. He often work off the shore. So as a gf, of course la aku terasa TERAMATLAH sunyi bila die takde. Bukannye sekejap, sebulan, dua bulan. And the sad part is, aku lgsg takde pengganti utk mengisi masa lapang aku. Die jelah satu2 nya orang yang ade dalam hati aku ni. Bile die offshore, aku jadi ayam berak kapur. Mcm pungguk yg rindu kat bulan. Tapi at least punggok tu untung lagi, sbb dapat tgk bulan hari2, wpun jauh tapi still bole Nampak. Aku? Nak dgr suara time die offshore pon. Subhan Allah, payahnye. Tuhan dgn rasul je tau mcmane aku rase rindu. Tapi die tak tau semua tu. N bile die balek sini, of course, OF COURSE I want him to spend some of his quality time with me. Tapi.. ntahla.. things changed. He changed. Things wont always be like we want it to be.. aku tggu die dgn penuh setia, dgn harapan, bila die balek nnt, aku bole jmp lepaskan rindu. Tu je aku mntak.
Entahla.. setiap kali die balek kampong, die mesti jadi dingin dgn aku. I dun understand why.. ntahlaa. Only if you how painful it is for me to wait for you. How lonely I am.. n how the sense of missing you is killing me.. u never know.. u never know cause u dun wanna noe. U never know cause u never care.... I dunt want ur money. I dun really want it. I just want ur attention.. ur attention, ur love and ur tenderness. I can’t help myself from being fooled for loving u too much. Oh yes, I am such a fool. But this fool has been loving you undoubtedly since five years back.. and I miss every seconds that I spent with you.. I just want you, n everything else won’t matter anymore.. I really mean it, dear.

couldnt agree more

When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us

b.i.t.c.h

Some people just wont let me be happy. BITCHHH! what do you want from me you stupid brainless, prideless, virginless, iq zero bitch! what actually do you want from me? cant you just let me be happy???????? kenape kau mesti nak buat cite pasal aku,. kau niiii mmgg jenis keturunan bitch ke? sial la kau ni. kau ni SIAL. sial. SIALLLLLLLLL. aku tak penah jumpe manusia sesial kau. aku tak penah jumpe manusia sesundal kejadian kau. kau dah knape anak haram! kau saket dada sangat ke tgk aku happy. what the hell with you? you noe u cant never compete me. becos ur just sooooo damn stupid. no matter how pretty u r and how ugly i am, i'm always the smartest one! you cant never change that fact. dig it bitch! dig it like ur stupid bfs dig your smelly pussy! i fucking hate you bitch. there's no way, i mean, NO WAY, we can ever be fren again. please, stay away from my life. i dun need u to interfere in my bisnes. pls bitch, let me be happy. and dun ruin my life by showing ur stupid face to me. go awayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!
i really mean it.

bestFRIENDship?

Friendship isn’t about whom you have known the longest...

It’s about whom came, and never left your side...

FRIENDSHIP!

BESTFRIEND?

Sometime I am afraid to admit that I have bestfriends. Because when I really think about it, this question came cross to my mind, “DO I REALLY HAVE ONE?” Well, im not sure myself. Do I really have one? I don’t know. I really don’t. I used to have a very-very close fren when I was younger. But things changed as I grew older. The best friend ever turns out to be the worst enemy ever exist. Maybe it is a part of growing up. Sometimes, I do miss the time that we used to spend together. The moment where we share our laughter, joy, happiness, mischievous things, and blablabla.

OH MY GOD! WHAT GETS IN TO ME? I MISS MY ENEMY?

WHAT THE TUTTTT!!

We do have the moment of our own, and of course I miss dat. And I wont deny it. But, I just hate her so much. And I dun know why, she keeps appearing in my dream! Only if she was nicer, and stop being such a bitch, maybe we are still together as a close fren. But its already too late I guess. Thing will never be the same again. I need her as my fren no more, I hate to noe that she’s alive, I hate to see her happy, and I hate her. Thats it. However, I do miss something that I called, FRIENDSHIP.

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