Oh yes I love you and I don’t want to break up. No, pleaseee. No!
Thursday, May 13, 2010
13 may 2010
Ape ada kat 13 may? takde pape.
ape jadi kat 13 may? Macam2 jadi.
1. Kena tinggal,
2. Nanges smpai cntactlens sblah mata hilang.
3. Drive kreta tanpa contactlens sejauh 347km
4. Kene maki dgn wife orang
5. Kena maki dgn bf sendri.
what else? U name it.
Haih. aku rase aku kena mandi bunga. tak sudah2 dgn suweyy yang menimpa.
dah dah la tu Encik Suwey. Kenape kau suke sgt nak melekat kat aku?
Takde orang lain?
Bila aku cakap aku dah break, dah kena tinggal, orang akan cakap,
“ala, jangan percaya kejap je tu.” “ala. Esok2 lusa okayla tu” “elehhh, bukan kau selalu ke macam ni” “dia main-main je tu”
You guys just don’t understand, do you? Tak kire la benda ni sekejap ke, lame ke, slalu ke tak slalu ke, besok ok, ke lusa ok ke, bukan benda tu sume yang penting. Tak kire la kalau aku break 2 saat skalipon, benda tu tetap saket.
S.A.K.E.T!
So, tolong jangan pertikaikan berapa lama tempoh aku break. Sebab korang taktau ape aku rase. Bukan korang yang kene tinggal. Bukan korang yang kene halau. Bukan korang yang tunggu 5tahun. Bukan korang yang menanges smpai contactlens hilang. Bukan korang. So. Korang taktau ape yang aku rase. Aku tulis ni, idak ler nak menyalahkan mane2 pihak. Maybe salah aku gak, sbb slalu menjaja cerita ke’break-up’an aku ni. Tapi tulah hakikat. Kalo korang dgr aku breakup dah hamper masuk kali ke 89, makna nye, setiap kali tu jugaklah aku akan frust menonggeng, menanges sampai mata kabur, smpai badan dehydrated. Kadang2, rasa tak adil. Kenapa aku sorang je yang rasa semua ni. Entahla. Maybe ade hikmah yang tuhan nak tunjok. Maybe.
And kali ni, die nak break, sume mmg sbb salah aku. 100% salah aku. Haihhh. Dahlah, dah start sedih balek dah ni. Need to get out of here.
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
ntahlaa
Aku, saye, me, myself, I..
Bile cakap pasal ‘aku’, semua orang tau, yang aku bukan perempuan yang baik.. dan maybe sbb tu jugakla, Tuhan bagi macam2 balasan kat aku kat dunia ni.. Aku dapat saket tu. Saket ni. Kadang2, aku tanye diri sendri, kenape aku? Kenape bukan orang lain? Kenape mesti aku?. Kenape aku yg dapat benda ni? Kenape bukan dia? Sedang kan dia lagi blablablabla. Dan time ni jugaklah, aku mula menunding jari, meng compare kan kejahatan diri dgn kejahatan orang lain. Cuba utk menegakkan diri yang sememangnye dah kecundang dgn kemelut dunia. Ayat ape yg aku guna ni? Aku sendri tak sure..
When people are talking about love life, I don’t know what to say. I don’t know where to begin and I don’t know where to comment. Been in a serious relationship for almost 5years, but still I don’t how to elaborate my love life. Am I happy? I don’t know. Am I wanted to be with him for the rest of my life? Sometimes, the answer is yes, and most of the time, the answer is no. So I don’t know. And now I start to talk about my love life. Dun bother to read if u dun want too. I wont force u anyway. He often work off the shore. So as a gf, of course la aku terasa TERAMATLAH sunyi bila die takde. Bukannye sekejap, sebulan, dua bulan. And the sad part is, aku lgsg takde pengganti utk mengisi masa lapang aku. Die jelah satu2 nya orang yang ade dalam hati aku ni. Bile die offshore, aku jadi ayam berak kapur. Mcm pungguk yg rindu kat bulan. Tapi at least punggok tu untung lagi, sbb dapat tgk bulan hari2, wpun jauh tapi still bole Nampak. Aku? Nak dgr suara time die offshore pon. Subhan Allah, payahnye. Tuhan dgn rasul je tau mcmane aku rase rindu. Tapi die tak tau semua tu. N bile die balek sini, of course, OF COURSE I want him to spend some of his quality time with me. Tapi.. ntahla.. things changed. He changed. Things wont always be like we want it to be.. aku tggu die dgn penuh setia, dgn harapan, bila die balek nnt, aku bole jmp lepaskan rindu. Tu je aku mntak.
Entahla.. setiap kali die balek kampong, die mesti jadi dingin dgn aku. I dun understand why.. ntahlaa. Only if you how painful it is for me to wait for you. How lonely I am.. n how the sense of missing you is killing me.. u never know.. u never know cause u dun wanna noe. U never know cause u never care.... I dunt want ur money. I dun really want it. I just want ur attention.. ur attention, ur love and ur tenderness. I can’t help myself from being fooled for loving u too much. Oh yes, I am such a fool. But this fool has been loving you undoubtedly since five years back.. and I miss every seconds that I spent with you.. I just want you, n everything else won’t matter anymore.. I really mean it, dear.
Bile cakap pasal ‘aku’, semua orang tau, yang aku bukan perempuan yang baik.. dan maybe sbb tu jugakla, Tuhan bagi macam2 balasan kat aku kat dunia ni.. Aku dapat saket tu. Saket ni. Kadang2, aku tanye diri sendri, kenape aku? Kenape bukan orang lain? Kenape mesti aku?. Kenape aku yg dapat benda ni? Kenape bukan dia? Sedang kan dia lagi blablablabla. Dan time ni jugaklah, aku mula menunding jari, meng compare kan kejahatan diri dgn kejahatan orang lain. Cuba utk menegakkan diri yang sememangnye dah kecundang dgn kemelut dunia. Ayat ape yg aku guna ni? Aku sendri tak sure..
When people are talking about love life, I don’t know what to say. I don’t know where to begin and I don’t know where to comment. Been in a serious relationship for almost 5years, but still I don’t how to elaborate my love life. Am I happy? I don’t know. Am I wanted to be with him for the rest of my life? Sometimes, the answer is yes, and most of the time, the answer is no. So I don’t know. And now I start to talk about my love life. Dun bother to read if u dun want too. I wont force u anyway. He often work off the shore. So as a gf, of course la aku terasa TERAMATLAH sunyi bila die takde. Bukannye sekejap, sebulan, dua bulan. And the sad part is, aku lgsg takde pengganti utk mengisi masa lapang aku. Die jelah satu2 nya orang yang ade dalam hati aku ni. Bile die offshore, aku jadi ayam berak kapur. Mcm pungguk yg rindu kat bulan. Tapi at least punggok tu untung lagi, sbb dapat tgk bulan hari2, wpun jauh tapi still bole Nampak. Aku? Nak dgr suara time die offshore pon. Subhan Allah, payahnye. Tuhan dgn rasul je tau mcmane aku rase rindu. Tapi die tak tau semua tu. N bile die balek sini, of course, OF COURSE I want him to spend some of his quality time with me. Tapi.. ntahla.. things changed. He changed. Things wont always be like we want it to be.. aku tggu die dgn penuh setia, dgn harapan, bila die balek nnt, aku bole jmp lepaskan rindu. Tu je aku mntak.
Entahla.. setiap kali die balek kampong, die mesti jadi dingin dgn aku. I dun understand why.. ntahlaa. Only if you how painful it is for me to wait for you. How lonely I am.. n how the sense of missing you is killing me.. u never know.. u never know cause u dun wanna noe. U never know cause u never care.... I dunt want ur money. I dun really want it. I just want ur attention.. ur attention, ur love and ur tenderness. I can’t help myself from being fooled for loving u too much. Oh yes, I am such a fool. But this fool has been loving you undoubtedly since five years back.. and I miss every seconds that I spent with you.. I just want you, n everything else won’t matter anymore.. I really mean it, dear.
Monday, February 1, 2010
couldnt agree more
When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us
Friday, January 29, 2010
b.i.t.c.h
Some people just wont let me be happy. BITCHHH! what do you want from me you stupid brainless, prideless, virginless, iq zero bitch! what actually do you want from me? cant you just let me be happy???????? kenape kau mesti nak buat cite pasal aku,. kau niiii mmgg jenis keturunan bitch ke? sial la kau ni. kau ni SIAL. sial. SIALLLLLLLLL. aku tak penah jumpe manusia sesial kau. aku tak penah jumpe manusia sesundal kejadian kau. kau dah knape anak haram! kau saket dada sangat ke tgk aku happy. what the hell with you? you noe u cant never compete me. becos ur just sooooo damn stupid. no matter how pretty u r and how ugly i am, i'm always the smartest one! you cant never change that fact. dig it bitch! dig it like ur stupid bfs dig your smelly pussy! i fucking hate you bitch. there's no way, i mean, NO WAY, we can ever be fren again. please, stay away from my life. i dun need u to interfere in my bisnes. pls bitch, let me be happy. and dun ruin my life by showing ur stupid face to me. go awayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!
i really mean it.
i really mean it.
Monday, January 25, 2010
bestFRIENDship?
Friendship isn’t about whom you have known the longest...
It’s about whom came, and never left your side...
FRIENDSHIP!
BESTFRIEND?
Sometime I am afraid to admit that I have bestfriends. Because when I really think about it, this question came cross to my mind, “DO I REALLY HAVE ONE?” Well, im not sure myself. Do I really have one? I don’t know. I really don’t. I used to have a very-very close fren when I was younger. But things changed as I grew older. The best friend ever turns out to be the worst enemy ever exist. Maybe it is a part of growing up. Sometimes, I do miss the time that we used to spend together. The moment where we share our laughter, joy, happiness, mischievous things, and blablabla.
OH MY GOD! WHAT GETS IN TO ME? I MISS MY ENEMY?
WHAT THE TUTTTT!!
We do have the moment of our own, and of course I miss dat. And I wont deny it. But, I just hate her so much. And I dun know why, she keeps appearing in my dream! Only if she was nicer, and stop being such a bitch, maybe we are still together as a close fren. But its already too late I guess. Thing will never be the same again. I need her as my fren no more, I hate to noe that she’s alive, I hate to see her happy, and I hate her. Thats it. However, I do miss something that I called, FRIENDSHIP.
;(
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